Hi folks: I have received numerous emails or was also asked personally about what is the latest news about Purpleez. I am very gratified that so many of you care..some of whom do not even know us. The support is overwelming. Well, the news is: When it rains, it pours... On last Wednesday I was told by her mother that purpleez has slipped into a coma. Then I have not heard anything else since....until last night. Turned out that her mother did her own bone surgery on last Friday, and was not able to come home until last nite. The reason? They dug out cancer cells from her jaw bone. Prognosis was not good, but they will send her to do radiation in a few days anyway to give it a shot. Since 1. Purpleez is over 18, 2. her now gravely ill mother has no medical insurance, and 3. Purpleeez was admitted to the hospital in an unconscious state; she had become the property of the Wisconsin state ward. This means that the state will pay for all her medical bills. The downside is, nobody can be in touch with her, unless she wakes up and gives her consent. The state has assigned a social worker to her. Her mother managed to pull some strings and was allowed to be told what is going on and be able to see her. Anyone else, including her brother, and her dad, were denied all visiting rights. In fact, if you call the Oshkosh state facility, Angela Faye Scott does not excist... They had done so many medical tests that the social worker has problem keeping track of the names. So far, eigth pints of blood as been drawn. They had ruled out anuerysm, brain injury, epilepsy, or stroke. The doctors are totally puzzled. She is now considered in a deep comatose, and according to the doctors, she can either snap out of it tomorrow, or never. They had been doing physcial therapy on her to make sure her muscles do not shrink, and also playing different type of music to see if she responded. So far some music did triggar some stronger brainwaves. But there is no big improvement. She is healthy in all counts, except being in a coma. I was asked to send music that she is familiar with to be played for her there. When Purp left for Wisconsin, we all thought it was a short term visit, so she left behind her belongings, including her music collection. Today I have just send some of her favorite CDs (mostly hard core punk), along with a Shrine of Lilith CD (that Perki kindly gave me), and also a tape recording of my voice, my singing, my speech, and our cat's meows. Hopefully one of them will wake her up. I have no idea how difficult it is to make a tape for someone.. it is like a radio show with one listener. I now also have discovered how difficult it was to sing or recite poems while crying. I have been totally stressed out. I dug up old private emails and her own private irc logs to figure out what was going on, to see if there is any warning signs; but all I find is a woman, even in private conversations with someone else, think of nothing but for the best of me. The more I read, the more tears Ishred. I have not been sleeping properly, and never been able to sleep for more than 4 hours a day ever since the day she lost consciousness. I am absolutely scared of possibly losing someone whom presumably will be my wife someday, frustrated of not being allowed to be there, and the despair associated with uncertainties. I managed to finish editing my resume, and began my job search (if you have any leads on a sys admin or a techie kind of job, please let me know), and so far I have been bombarded with requests for more resumes or telephone interviews. I sure hope to be able to find a job real quick, a job that can lock me up 20 hours a day facing the computer screeen, so I do not need to think about anything else anymore. Whatever I do, right now, in retrospect, makes me feel really empty. The truth is, it is difficult to wake up alone by myself, and then see the empty vanity table; hearing the cat losing its voices due to constant crying because she misses her mommy; or the sight of her art table. I have been sleeping in the office bed ever since, because I simply cannot stomach being in our bedroom and deal with the sorrow. I have write two sister websites for her...it is located in http://www.tsoft.com/~hbv and http://www.sfgoth.com/~conradin They are basically the same. I would like to ask for a simple request. Since Purpleez may be able to be awaken with something familiar, I'd like to request anyone who knows her, show up at Shrine tomorrow, and record a little greeting message on my walkman recorder. Treat the recorder as if it is her. I hope in her deep unconsciousness she would recognize one of you, and wake up. I think I am truly beat now, and for the first time I think I will go to sleep, instead of being an insomniac and do the nightly once-around Lake Merritt walk (a highly recommended activity btw) at 4am. Once again thank you for your support. I may speak little, but believe me, I appreciate every single hugs, prayer, emails, or just hand shake and a pat on the back. Thank you. I will update the situation when new info comes in. Sincerely, melancholic and stressed out;