Links for Erin of Sunnyvale

1. tinyurl.com/uh3t (you already saw this)
2. tinyurl.com/2g6rkz = Article detailing our misunderstandings that first day we met, embedded in article about how the only reason any woman ever wants to do anything for me is if she feels sorry for me, embedded in discussion about how men abuse shy vulnerable women and I pointed out that women abuse shy vulnerable men too. Please read this!!! Then please talk with me about anything I still don't understand about your intentions those first few minutes.
3. Definition of what the word "friend" means to me:
   • Original version, with good Subject field, but missing next-to-last line.
   • Corrected/updated version, but not as great a Subject line.
   I like being with you, and would like us to become friends in some of the ways described in that file.

• 2007.Oct.27 12 -- We first met, had some misunderstandings (see details that I posted later, link 2 above), then talked for 20 minutes. Erin virtually promised to contact me via my Web site, after which I'd be able to e-mail her. Later that day I realized the urgent need to tell her by e-mail about the misunderstandings, so from that point forward I yearned for her to contact me so that I could tell her promptly.
• 2007.Oct.28-31 -- I checked for her e-mail every day, doing a full keyword search for "Erin" just in case her e-mail was mixed with spam, but she never contacted me.
• 2007.Nov.01 10 -- I got tired of waiting for Erin, so in the middle of posting an article to a newsgroup lamenting about how I had never met a nice single woman close to my age, nor one of any age who was attracted to me, I spilled my guts about how Erin was treating me as a charity case just like other women have done in the past (see link 2 above). From this point onward my intention was to just e-mail her the URL for that article when she finally contacts me.
• 2007.Nov.01-03 -- She still never contacted me, so I never got to send her the URL.
• 2007.Nov.03 12 -- I spent an hour looking for Erin, but she wasn't there. I was ready to give up and go home, but got in an argument with Dave Whittum then got in a major argument with Maria Pan, and I was so upset I didn't feel like going home alone, so I made another halfway pass through the market, and suddenly Erin appeared coming toward me like she wanted to see me. I walked with her, told her just a few highlights of the misunderstandings file, so she'd realize the importance of looking at the whole article. Then we sat and talked for a half hour. During that talk, she told me some troubling things about her life, which makes it even more urgent for us to talk on a regular basis, so that I might help her deal with post-traumatic neurosis.
• 2007.Nov.04-07 -- I checked every day, but still she never contacted me.
• 2007.Nov.07 evening -- I came to realize she'd never contact me online, so my only hope of her reading what I had written was to make a new tinyurl and hand it to her on the back of my business card when I see her on Nov.10, so I went ahead and made the new tinyurl (see link 2 above) and wrote it on the back of one of my business cards in my backpack.
• 2007.Nov.08 02 -- I woke up because I decided that Erin really needs to read my definition of "Friend" that I posted a few years ago, so I needed to make up a new tinyurl for that posting too. But then I realized it would be silly to make up a different tinyurl for each separate topic I want to discuss with Erin so instead I made this links file, made a tinyurl for it, and wrote that one last tinyurl for Erin below the other on the back of that same business card. I searched Google Groups and found both the original and the corrected posting of my "Friend" definition (see links 3 above).
• 2007.Nov.08-10 -- Erin still didn't contact me, not as originally promised, and not as promised if she can't show up Nov.10, so I fully expected to see her Nov.10 and hand her the business card with the new URLs on it.
• 2007.Nov.10 11-13 -- I spent over an hour and a half walking back and forth looking for Erin, even into when it started to sprinkle lightly, but she never showed up. She broke her promise to let me know if she wasn't going to show up today. So she still doesn't know where to find either the original article about our misunderstandings nor the additional links for my definitions of "friend". By the end, I was totally crushed emotionally.
• 2007.Nov.10 13-15 -- When I got home I was too upset to go up to my room, so I sat in the lobby for two hours almost crying.
• 2007.Nov.10 23 -- I retroactively added this chronology section.
• Future plans: Make list of items I urgently need to talk to Erin about if I ever see her again: Business card with URLs, her photos and low self esteem and my plans to help her, relativity of trust including my trust of her to guide me blindfolded across a busy street, it's obvious what I get out of being with Erin but what is Erin getting out of it, Minna, Erin must absolutely promise to tell me if she ever has feelings for me so that I won't hurt her feelings, we need to exchange info about what we're interested in so that we'll have interesting things to do together as we build a friendship.
• 2007.Nov.10-Dec.04 -- Erin still hasn't contacted me, and she hasn't shown up at Farmer's Market any of these Saturdays (Nov.10, Nov.17(cruise), Nov.24, Dec.01), so I just haven't felt like fleshing out any of the topics in the previous paragraph. After all, if she'll never look at this file, why waste my time writing stuff to her that she'll never see?
• 2007.Dec.05 -- I went to a dentist appointment, then spent the rest of the afternoon and most of evening at the public library, but I was so exhausted I had to nap in the library with a periodical on my lap. When I got home I was too exhausted to check my e-mail. In the evening at home I passed out with all my clothes on, then woke up Dec.06 sometime 1-2 AM but I was too exhausted to go online to check e-mail, so I burned time until after 3:30 AM.
• 2007.Dec.06 -- I didn't wake up until 9:30, so I got less than 6 hours sleep and was exhausted all day. I had lots of stuff to do mid-day so I didn't get to check my e-mail until mid-afternoon, where I found somebody had sent me e-mail claiming to be Erin, but with a really suspicious e-mail address totally unlike her personality, and revealing no information whatsoever except what I had posted to a public newsgroup, so I challenged the person to prove she's Erin. Then I took a shower and went to the community meeting. When I got back, I checked e-mail again, saw that there was a new message from the Erin person, but before I could look at it the modem dropped carrier and I had to re-dial. Finally I could see Erin's response, and it looks like it really is Erin, so after composing most of a message back to her with URL to this file, now I have edited this file for the first time since Nov.10, because now there's a chance she might actually read it. I'll finish my e-mail reply with URL and send it to her next just after 8PM while watching a good re-run of Smallville.